Ok, 我还没死.
中午,考过molecular genetics了.
感觉还ok. 因为教授满懒的, 竟然把textbook end of chapter 的exercises当考题 ~~lll
anyway, 考了就是时候把所有给忘了:P
The professor is not that diligent. but, I think I'm lazier than him.
I am motivated to study anymore. Just wanna watch tv and go to club activities.
such a bad student I am. I think I've made some sort of timetable to discipline myself....
My semester didn't start as good as I wanted.
Yet, I've been thinking a lot.
Thinking about what I really want, why am I studying, what is the purpose I choose biotechnology, what do I want to do in the future with my major...
Sometimes, when you're too preoccupied inn doing something, you just lose or forget the purpose of doing. In these 2 years, I've been taking courses for the sake of fulfilling my graduation requirements, and I stopped thinking of why I want to take the courses....
In these few weeks, after a challenge after another, I finally realize why I wanna go into the area I am in. I don't think I am into designing some super powerful drugs for the pharmaceutical industry..
But, I remember that evening when I told you my dream....
The dream I've forgotten yet found.
May my dream comes true.
Tuesday, September 30, 2008
Friday, September 26, 2008
Thursday, September 25, 2008
My life is crappy
I spent time blogging instead of studying
I attend club activity instead of studying
I watch youtube instead of studying
I surf the internet instead of studying
I check mail five times instead of studying
I chat thru msn instead of studying
I AM SO DEAD
coz next week I've first exam coming up X(
I attend club activity instead of studying
I watch youtube instead of studying
I surf the internet instead of studying
I check mail five times instead of studying
I chat thru msn instead of studying
I AM SO DEAD
coz next week I've first exam coming up X(
Wednesday, September 24, 2008
:)
Read a couple of blogs by my friends.
Everyone seemed so stressed out!
Coursework, exams, quizzes have put a heavy burden on us these days.
Learning is not as fun as previous years.
But,
I hope everyone will be fine.
Remember to breath, smile and laugh often :)
~Ean~
Everyone seemed so stressed out!
Coursework, exams, quizzes have put a heavy burden on us these days.
Learning is not as fun as previous years.
But,
I hope everyone will be fine.
Remember to breath, smile and laugh often :)
~Ean~
Sunday, September 21, 2008
Housemates
I mentioned in my previous blog that 3 of my housemates moved out last month, right?
But, did I tell you that the new guy that moves is a cute guy? @-@
Ok, Marley, Charlton and Angela moved out.
The new tenants are Ricardo, Tierre and John.
Ricardo was a philosophy graduate student from Mexico.
He is quiet most of the time and studies very hard just like me.
He is quite tall tho, more than 6.5 feet, I guessed ~ Real Tall~
John, preferably known as Comet as it's his cool middle name, is the cute guy I mentioned :P
He is quite tan because he is a beach guard and like to surf. ~Beachboy~
I think he's cute not because of his "color", but he has dimples!
They made him looked so cute and attractive!!! Hahaha! (I love guy with dimples :D)
Don't worry, I'm not going to fall in love with him tho coz his gf, Tierre is moving in soon.
She will reach here on Wednesday.
Can you imagine, Tierre, a native Californian is moving to NJ just to be with her boyfriend?
The power of love is just too great!
I never met her before, but I believe she is as nice as Lora, Ricardo and Comet!
Yesterday, I went to the Rutgers Farm.
Marley, Charlton, Lora and their friends were having BBQ there and chatting...
It's a wet and cold night, but sitting near the camp fire made me warm.
That was the first bonfire I ever went in US.
I remember going to my last bonfire when I was in Form 2, with the Scout.
It's was memorable night, but, after spending 2 hours there, I have to work like hell today to finish up my homeworks...
_Ean_
But, did I tell you that the new guy that moves is a cute guy? @-@
Ok, Marley, Charlton and Angela moved out.
The new tenants are Ricardo, Tierre and John.
Ricardo was a philosophy graduate student from Mexico.
He is quiet most of the time and studies very hard just like me.
He is quite tall tho, more than 6.5 feet, I guessed ~ Real Tall~
John, preferably known as Comet as it's his cool middle name, is the cute guy I mentioned :P
He is quite tan because he is a beach guard and like to surf. ~Beachboy~
I think he's cute not because of his "color", but he has dimples!
They made him looked so cute and attractive!!! Hahaha! (I love guy with dimples :D)
Don't worry, I'm not going to fall in love with him tho coz his gf, Tierre is moving in soon.
She will reach here on Wednesday.
Can you imagine, Tierre, a native Californian is moving to NJ just to be with her boyfriend?
The power of love is just too great!
I never met her before, but I believe she is as nice as Lora, Ricardo and Comet!
Yesterday, I went to the Rutgers Farm.
Marley, Charlton, Lora and their friends were having BBQ there and chatting...
It's a wet and cold night, but sitting near the camp fire made me warm.
That was the first bonfire I ever went in US.
I remember going to my last bonfire when I was in Form 2, with the Scout.
It's was memorable night, but, after spending 2 hours there, I have to work like hell today to finish up my homeworks...
_Ean_
Thursday, September 18, 2008
a sad day
The is the 1st time I felt so helpless during my college life.
So frustrated with my inability....
To be frank, I cried in front of my adviser this evening.
I have never cried outside my home before, never ever....
Yet, I was so stressed out after the Biochemistry lab and lecture yesterday.
I so wanted to drop the lab courses but I was so afraid of getting a "W" on my transcript...
Though I managed to suppress my feeling for a day, I could not take it anymore after I met with my adviser.
Tears just kept rolling down right after she said, "You looked so upset."
This was exactly how I felt these 2 days, NO, these 3 weeks after the school starts.
I just couldn't keep the feeling to myself anymore...
I need someone to talk to, someone who really understands the situation...
You must be wondering what the situation is...
I was taking the Experimental Biochemistry a 3 credit hours course.
Though it's 3 credit hours, the lab ran from 9pm till 2am and there is a lecture for the lab.
So, we have to spend 6 hours in total in class.
According to the norm,
3 credit hours = 9hours per week
Since we already spend 6 hours in class, we should spend another 3hours .
But, there are ways too many readings for the labs, not to mention about the FORMAL lab report which have to include everything from abstract to references which has to be done EVERY WEEK...
Maybe I set such a high limit on myself, thinking that I can survive any subject I take.
But, with so many classwork from each of the 5 courses, I really could not handle it anymore.
It's just way too much....
I didn't even have time to cook and eat dinner yesterday. It's just crazy...
After have a long chat with my adviser, though I was crying throughout the meeting, I decided to drop it. I didn't care if I got a "w". Because, deep inside myself, I knew that I'll be very sick physically and mentally after this semester if I continued with the courses.
I have thought a lot these days.
Is study really that important?
It took me a while to understand that I'm not just a student.
I'm a daughter, a sister, a friend, a roommate, a member of the society, of the country and the world.
I am a human being made with blood and flesh!
I shouldn't let my schoolwork takes up all my time.
College should be a place where one grows up to be a better person, not to be a nerd....
I didn't have a long chat with my family for a while...
I wanted to talk with my mom yesterday, but I dropped my phone and broke the screen of the phone. So, I couldn't retrieve any phone numbers from my old phone...
~Ean~
So frustrated with my inability....
To be frank, I cried in front of my adviser this evening.
I have never cried outside my home before, never ever....
Yet, I was so stressed out after the Biochemistry lab and lecture yesterday.
I so wanted to drop the lab courses but I was so afraid of getting a "W" on my transcript...
Though I managed to suppress my feeling for a day, I could not take it anymore after I met with my adviser.
Tears just kept rolling down right after she said, "You looked so upset."
This was exactly how I felt these 2 days, NO, these 3 weeks after the school starts.
I just couldn't keep the feeling to myself anymore...
I need someone to talk to, someone who really understands the situation...
You must be wondering what the situation is...
I was taking the Experimental Biochemistry a 3 credit hours course.
Though it's 3 credit hours, the lab ran from 9pm till 2am and there is a lecture for the lab.
So, we have to spend 6 hours in total in class.
According to the norm,
3 credit hours = 9hours per week
Since we already spend 6 hours in class, we should spend another 3hours .
But, there are ways too many readings for the labs, not to mention about the FORMAL lab report which have to include everything from abstract to references which has to be done EVERY WEEK...
Maybe I set such a high limit on myself, thinking that I can survive any subject I take.
But, with so many classwork from each of the 5 courses, I really could not handle it anymore.
It's just way too much....
I didn't even have time to cook and eat dinner yesterday. It's just crazy...
After have a long chat with my adviser, though I was crying throughout the meeting, I decided to drop it. I didn't care if I got a "w". Because, deep inside myself, I knew that I'll be very sick physically and mentally after this semester if I continued with the courses.
I have thought a lot these days.
Is study really that important?
It took me a while to understand that I'm not just a student.
I'm a daughter, a sister, a friend, a roommate, a member of the society, of the country and the world.
I am a human being made with blood and flesh!
I shouldn't let my schoolwork takes up all my time.
College should be a place where one grows up to be a better person, not to be a nerd....
I didn't have a long chat with my family for a while...
I wanted to talk with my mom yesterday, but I dropped my phone and broke the screen of the phone. So, I couldn't retrieve any phone numbers from my old phone...
~Ean~
Friday, September 12, 2008
Change
OK!
Time for change.
It's not that I don't like Friendster blog (the new layout is pretty cool), but, I keep on facing some technical problems...
I guess it's time for me to bid farewell with it...
If the problems are solved, I might return to that blog tho :)
Time for change.
It's not that I don't like Friendster blog (the new layout is pretty cool), but, I keep on facing some technical problems...
I guess it's time for me to bid farewell with it...
If the problems are solved, I might return to that blog tho :)
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