food...

Ahhhh!!! Not a good idea to visit the newspaper's food column at midnight.... http://www.guangming.com.my/node/113189?tid=46
so hungry....

I want a bowl of steamy 粿汁...

When?

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I was hoping to write something cheerful after my blog makeover. Yet, it seems that problems can't stop trailing me. Sometimes, I felt I'm gonna have a breakdown. Is it time to give everything up? Why things are not going well as I imagined they will.. Why is it so hard to have the "normal" way of life?

Maybe, it's the norm life. The up and down. But, whenever I was at the low side, people around me still have high hopes for me. Well, people around you see something good that you won't recognize when you're in the middle of the mud. They always wish me the best. Their good encouragements always help me keep my chin high up.

Still, I'm wondering when the good things are coming? If they are not gonna come, when is the right time put an end to everything? Am I wasting my time waiting when I should be doing something better?

O.O

WOw, it's been 5 months since I last updated the site. Maybe it's time for me to get started on blogging again. I've made some changes on the layout as of now. I don't have any fun things to write yet. Well, I'll write something later...

...

她说, 一觉醒来，就自然而然该知道怎么办了。那如果彻夜难眠呢？
事实是，事情是不一夜消失的。
我以为我走了好久好远，原来我一直在原地踏步。
挫折的滋味很难受，可是不管再苦再痛，都要去学习忍受与克服。
或许永远一帆风顺的一生就不算是完整的人生了。

Dust of old memories

So, I always received friendster email in the mailbox. Usually, I delete them right away, but just now, I 心血来潮 decided to log in my frienster account. It's been abadoned since 2008, since FB "took over the world". Suddenly, I remembered I used to have a blog in friendster, in fact it is my 1st blog before I moved to blogger. So, I went ahead and accessed the long abandoned space and read several posts (actually more than 10)....

Well, what can I say... Reading the old blog is like time traveling back to the good old days..
like the days when I was in INTEC, the day I took SAT & TOEFL, the day I made my decision to pick Rutgers and wondered if I made the best choice, the day I stepped on the land of America for the first time, the day I thought I adapted to life there or maybe not, the first day of my sophomore year, the first day of my junior year... There goes 5 years of my lifes..Time does pass without yourrealizing it..

I used to think I was not that naive. But, I realized from the posts I was not that smart either.. I did think silly stuffs, made stupid decision, and cared too much about tiny things. Still, I'm still the same now..

I know it's kinda silly to look back of things that happened 5 years back. We should live in present and look ahead at the future and never look back as advised by Katy Perry. But, looking back at the past not only revive the good memory but it also reminded me of the life experience that shape who I am now and hopefully guide me in the future! :)

This..

This... will pass too.

Working on my presentation tomorrow n studying for physical chem midterm this Friday. There are so much to do besides these, project abstract for food engineering class n research proposal for lipid course. Not to mention works in the lab too.

There are so much on the plates now that I felt I can't hold on anymore.

But, suddenly, the phrase, "This will pass too," came across my mind. I forget from where I heard about this phrase. But, it's so true. Nothing really stays. Obstacles after obstacles. If u don't pass them, they will pass you. Why cling on so hard? Just do the best and all things will fall into right places. Although, that will pass too..

简单.否

长大了，发现世界不再是那么简单。
周遭的人，事，物不再是想象中的单纯了。
以前的黑与白多了个灰。
计划和实践中多了变化。
或许，这就是人生的锻炼吧！
训练着怎么在这多姿多彩，变化无常的日子中，保持那颗真诚的赤子之心 :)