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明天是biochem的期中考.
终于读完了....
虽然担心,但是不管了...考就是了.

我发现我好像越来越爱享受了.
以前的我可以为了读书,规定自己每天只看一出戏.
先在,假使不上网, 我也不爱看书... 真糟糕!
I felt so guilty.... still and so guilty for dropping the Experimental Biochemistry...
Who can help me let go of that feeling?
It has been bothering me for weeks....
I'll go crazy if I kept on thinking of it.. of the failure.....

This evening, a weird thought somehow crossed my mind. I was thinking what kind of life my mom had when she was 20. I'm sure she wasn't worry about whether she would pass her biochemistry test like me. When she was 20, she just finished her form 6. Was she trying to get a job? Or, just stay at home waiting for her stpm result? I'm so curious :) help me ask her la!

Recently, I think I have more and more unattainable desire. I want this and that. Deep in my heart, I knew it's hard for me to get it. But still, I hope for it. It's so unlike me. The old me never wished for anything she couldn't never get. She just accept what was given and enjoyed it.
I know it's good to hope for something better. But then, I'm so bad at stress management. The thought of not getting what I want really stresses me out... I hope I could become the old me that wish for nothing I could not never attain.....

HuiAnn