hot

The weather was as hot as 2 days ago.
today, we had 1 replacement class at the Food Science Reading Room.
The room was super warm because there is no window in the room.
We only survived with a fan. It was just hot! hot! hot!
It made me super sleepy and no mood to listen to the lecture.
The warm classroom made me thought of the secondary school day where we had classes in classrooms without air conditioner...
Frankly speaking, since I first came here, I had never had a lecturer in such warm weather....
It's just crazy!

maybe the weather is a sign that it's time for me to go :)
yes! 1 more year and i'm done with schools!
dun wanna stay here anymore... i wanna go home.....

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This evening, in the American Gov. lecture, we were shown "The Battle of Alger" Movie.
It's about how the Arabic people in Algeria fought for independence. The whole process started from peace movements. However, as the French government continued to ignore the people, the guerrilla wars begun to develop. The groups started from killing the police and than the public at the later stage. The society was just a mess. I felt there is one big stone in my heart after watching it. Sometimes, we just took peace for granted. We ignored the fact that our founding fathers has fought hard for it and the many lives that was lost in the process. Hope that everyone can live in peace and harmony under the roof of Malaysia.

I just googled the info of Algeria. It seemed that the country is developing very well. I kind of felt happy for them because at least the lives lost in the wars were justified by the progress and development enjoyed by the Algerians nowadays. PEACE!

26C

ya, it's 26C out there. It felt like the summer though it's still mid of spring.
When The forecast said that it's going to be 81F today, I thought the weather was just nice for Ag Field/Rutgers Day. But now, I don't think so anymore.
The sun was scotching hot this afternoon, like the afternoon in Malaysia! It is! I'm not kidding.
I even got sunburn after being outside the whole day. Now, my skin has 2 different color. So horrible!

anyway, the event today was as nice as usual. There were more stalls and booths since we're having Rutgers Day along with Ag Field and NJ Folk Festival. I was planning to buy lavender this morning because I like the smell very much. But then, I won't be here to take care of them, I didn't buy any. So, I didn't get what I want.... But, I bought few used books from the Ecology Club booth. $5 for the recipe books and $1 for the novel. Pretty cheap :)
I also took some pictures of pigs, horses... I saw Dr. Kobayashi, the molecular genetics professor on my way. He was tendering his 3 little grandchildren. So funny!

After walking around the Cook Campus, I went to the Busch because they needed people to do the table when the seniors were doing demo. But, there was no audience when they're doing the demo because not many people went to the Rec Center. I'm basically wasting my time there :O Anyway, I tried the rock climbing, paintballing, and fencing while I was there. So, I guessed it worth it to go to Busch.

Then, I went to Cook again, and bought some lunch. This was when I got my sunburn -- queuing under the hot sun for >10 minutes to get the crab cake :'( I walked the passion puddle around after I got the yummy lunch. They had the annual "world" longest egg toss there. Then, I saw a senior and a junior. We walked around, took a couple of pictures, went to a couple of booths, had our names written in Korean and Japanese :D etc. etc.... And, this ended my trip to the Rutgers Day!

I was so tired after 1-day of waking that I dozed off in the living room after I came home @@

It's super warm now!!! It's like a nite in Malaysia :S
I need air conditioner!

:S

I knew the rough draft is due tomorrow.
But still, I didn't feel like doing it....
I am making several excuse to procrastinate, like I still have a week to work on it before the final draft is due, blah, blah, blah....
烦!

I just realized that school is almost over when Mr. Andersen said we'll have the last American Gov next Thursday. Spring sem always goes fast. I had the last AZ meeting the week. I had the last biochem lab 2 weeks ago. Yet, I still felt like more biochem lab reports are coming. Though I really afraid of the heavy course load at the beginning of semester, but I come to like the classes gradually.

~ Biochem n mol gen lab were not that hard after all.
~ And, I seriously learnt something in the American Gov. It was also fun to relate what I learnt
to the situation in Malaysia.
~ Scientific writing is hard, but, it gave me a chance to learn different kind of writing, which might be useful for my future career.
~ Studying for biochem is time consuming as usual, but my hard work was paid of. Now, I'm still wondering whether I should do the extra credit...
~ Food analysis was boring. But, the food science undergraduates are the coolest people I've ever met in Rutgers. Everyone is fun and easy going :)

That is a quick summary for the 6 courses I'm taking this semester.
Now what? Apa lagi, time to work hard for final! Hopefully, I can get what I wish for.
After that, it'll be my vacation time. Ha, I can see shorts, sandals, sun, sands, skirts, and soybeans!

This Saturday is Rutgers Day. Can't wait for it to come. Coz I know I'll have hell lotzzz of fun :) Will take lotzzzz of pictures of my beautiful campus. This year I might not be able to make it for the pigs, cows, horses, sheeps... But, hopefully, I get what I wish for!

Relieved

HUH!

Finally, the D-date, April 20th, came and left.
I just finished my presentation today.
I thought it was going to a really bad presentation since I never did well in any presentations....
If you were my INTEC classmates, you knew what I mean ~ the sweating, gagapness, over nervousness, super soft voices, trembling voice, Pn Suzana's horrible comments etc, etc..
In short, they were mere disasters and bad memory!

But, the presentation I gave today was not at all bad.
Of course, I still couldn't speak like an American.
But, at least the professor and classmates knew what I was presenting :)
Also, since the class was so small ~ less than 15 peoples, I managed to give a few good eye contacts. ><
I must thank some of the classmates who nodded and smiled while I'm presenting.
The gestures provided me extra strength and confidence to perform better.
Also, a big thank to the girl, who likes to ask questions, for asking me good questions.
It gave me a chance to answer them professionally :)

Actually, before I did my presentation, I thought of Kendo.
I reminisced the scene where I was the last person doing the Kirigaishi in the court.
Although many eyes were watching me, I still tried my best to do every strike precisely and shout out loud.
I realized that I should not be afraid to make mistakes because everyone is a student in the court; we're just trying to learn from each other.
The presentation should work the same way too.
The audiences were all students; we're learning from each other.
So, there were nothing to be embarrassed of if I made a mistake.
In fact, I might help them perform better with my mistakes!
The idea gave my the confidence I never had.
And, thanks God, I was able to carry out my presentation calmly :)

Though I've survived the presentation, there is still a long way to go before I can be a good and eloquent public speaker. Hopefully, I'll have more chances to train myself in other future presentations.

Also, four girls presented today. But, I'm the only 1 wearing trousers...
Time to get some flowery nice skirts :D

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haih, 2 hours...
have been sitting in front of my computer since 2pm, trying real hard to pop out a paper...
but, i just can't

i hate paper writing. i just hate it.
i am not creative. i just can't write...

the weather is so nice. i want to go outside, sit on the lawn and enjoy the sunshine
but, i can't. too much to do, yet so little accomplished.
i hate school. how i wish it's a holiday :(

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Monkey ----> 38 NEE who didn't pick up my phone!

Wakakakakaka!

5

Done registering classes in 5 minutes. The good of being a senior.
Opps! I'll be a "senior citizen" in university next year, not more 'freshie, freshie'.
Haih..... So old~~~

But, actually not really done with registering classes.
I forgot to get a special permission for a course.
Silly me. I didn't even remember to check.
Hopefully, it will not fill up fast coz it's the last sem I can take it.
"Senior citizen" do have a bad memory :S

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I felt "empty" these few days. Something is missing in my life.
But, I still haven't figured out what it is.
It's weird. It's just weird.
Something is definitely not with me.
But, what is it? I never know.
Am I losing something unconsciously?
I don't know. I don't know.
I'm feeling blue~~~

I'm not feeling so well this week.
Sinus infection, I guess.
But, I have no time to pay attention to it.
I'm just too lazy.
The sickness is dragging me down.
I didn't feel like doing anything.
I don't wanna do homework, nor study.
Sleep, ample of sleep, is what I yearn.
Still, I went to kendo this morning, coz I thought it's the last Saturday practice.
I'm wrong. The last one is on May 2nd. But, I'm glad that I go.

Wednesday was a windy night. But, it was not cold.
It was like the summer breeze in that very summer I came to US.
The wind made me think of the first day I reached here.
There were 1 me, 2 big luggage, and nothing else.
Three years ago, I was so afraid of the new environment.
On the very first day, I cried and doubted my decision.
Papa, mama, siss were not there, and best friends were out of reach.
I had no one to count on. I hated to be alone.
I wasn't that strong after all.
The very first week was horrifying. I doubted many would understand that.
I never want to remember it, but the wind brought it back.

I remembered waking up from my sleep, but never wanting to leave the bed.
How I wished I could continue sleeping and go home in my dream.
Voice of people chatting out there terrified me.
They're speaking English, the proper US English like in the movie.
"Can I understand what they're talking?" I wondered.

Three years later, here I am.
I have a room, friends, furniture, lot of clothes, friends, memory, good GPA etc..
There are things that I never expected on the very first day.
Now, I wonder, "What's next?"
I'll never know. Only God knows.

One more year to go before saying "Good Bye".
There are things and people that I never want to say "Good Bye".
But, it's impossible. People and things come and go in life.
Everything is transient.

Three years ago, I left the familiar for the foreign.
One year later, I'll leave the familiar for the more familiar (I hope it's).